Last night, as some of you already know, I attended a writing teleclass conducted by Kerri Richardson; the same writing coach as the in-person workshop I went to last month. Even though the first class helped me immensely, I still have some blocks I need help with. I emailed a few of the blocks I have been recently running into and was looking forward to getting some inspiration for dealing with them.
(As a side note, her next month’s class topic is on blogging so check it out http://kerririchardson.com/get-help-from-kerri/#online.)
I realized last night that the blocks I thought I was stuck on really aren’t holding me back as much I thought. Yeah, finding the time has been a biggie, but as you see I have been managing somehow. Even as I have been sitting here, my 3 year old grabbed my writing notebook and is doodling next to me, copying mommy, and giving me a few moments to write this. I think the kids already realize that this is important time for mom and it doesn’t take that long. I don’t think I realized what my biggest problem was until Kerri mentioned running away from a part of your project and looking at why. That hit me like a brick and it was obviously what I needed to hear.
You see, my true desire is to write my story and there are several of you that know some of it. Over the years I have had friends that I have told it to and their responses have usually been “You should write a book.” (And once I even got “That sounds like a Dr. Phil Show story.” Uh… No thanks!) I have sat down countless, and I mean countless times, completely driven and inspired to write about it. By the time I would get a page or two done, I would be either in tears or completely pissed off and they would usually just end up in the trash. I understand that this has been my process, a pretty unfruitful one at that, but I didn’t realize why I couldn’t get any further, at ten whole years later!
All of this time I was judging myself for not getting any further, even to the point of thinking I just needed to be one of those all-forgiving, let it all go, forgive and forget types. I just needed to live in the moment and not “let the past define me”. I don’t know about you but my past has made me the kind of parent I am today, and the kind of spouse and friend I am as well. The lessons I can share about what I have gone through are valuable. I have known that yet I was still unable to write about them.
Last night I realized that the “why” of running away from writing it down wasn’t because of some flaw with me but with my support system. I have been Mrs. Independent, super homeschooling mom of four, growing our own organic garden, who can even rebuild a car engine type of gal! Me? Need help from someone besides my husband?
So, yes… I admit it. I need a personal support system to write this book. I need to be able to write a few pages and NOT toss them in the trash but give them to someone to read so I have the courage to keep going. I know my reconnecting with a few of my oldest friends since moving back to New England is going to help. And I have been incredibly fortunate to have met some really great new friends in the past year. Maybe deep down, it is because of the new support I now have that I can feel like I am ready to do this.
As a Parent Coach and Mentor, my passion lies in empowering parents to make the best decisions they can for their children and their families as a whole. As a well-trained coach, I can be your facilitator and accountability partner for long-lasting, meaningful change that has a permanent, positive impact for your family. By focusing on the values that you hold most important in your life, I can help you create and maintain the type of parenting relationship you want to have with your children, now and into their adulthood.
I am a homeschooling mom of four children in Massachusetts. I am also the author of a book called The Herbal Beverage Book, which can be found on amazon or directly on my website. When not coaching, writing or spending time with the family, I enjoy Hayao Miyazaki films, new and classic Dr. Who episodes, anything related to American history and a great glass of mead.
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